Saturday, June 21, 2008
Coping and Adapting
I miss him.3 days together was gone in a flash. Happy times just passed by so quickly. As the time trickled down to the final few hours, i couldnt help but break down in front of him. I didnt want to sleep. I just want to see him sleep beside me. Soundly like a baby. He behaved just like little boy in front of me, always wanting my attention and be loved. Only when there's me and no one else was around.
I send him off. The moment i see him off to the departure gates, after a few kisses and hugs, he inched further away from me. I turned my back and walked off, with tears flowing. Saw his plane flew off, i cried again. My heart feels crushed or maybe he did take my heart away. Felt lost.
Although it's just 6 weeks apart, i still cant help crying. In front of him, i can no longer be strong. The emotional reliance on him was unexpectedly strong. Hopefully, the week of coping and adapting without him physically present would quickly pass by.Now I am really contented with his few minutes of Skype and call...
Dearie, come back soon and have fun over in Japan. My heart will always be with you, wherever you go. Aishiteru.
