Monday, February 23, 2009
Pissed. Super.
I am very pissed these days. So pissed that I cant sleep, so pissed that I have to swear at least once a day and so pissed that I have to complained. Even Sky didnt make me that pissed before. I am very fucking pissed off.
Who could have pissed me off so much?
It's my fucking 2 aunties. I called them the evil twin or carrots sister (carrot because one of them, the more evil one, has permed her hair till it's like the "bushy" part of carrot).
This red carrot (I repeat.. the more evil one) has been going to the hospital every single day ever since my grandma is hospitalised. By right, we ought to thank this "kindest greatest soul" for "taking care" of my grandma. Since she is not working or running her stall (her market is renovating) while the rest of us, including my uncles and dad, are working, it's only right for her to visit her mother. But then again, we didnt ask her to come visit every single day.
Apparently, it was discovered that she is not doing all these out of pure kindness, but eyeing on the large amount of savings that my grandma has scrimped and saved over the years. And she has been going around telling people in the hospital that she has been so filial and claiming credits for herself. Of course, at the same time, she has been discrediting her brothers for not taking the responsibility and speaking ill of us behind our backs. Such a bitch.
Secretly, she began pressuring my father to release the money in my grandma's joint account with my father to split up the money. And that was even when my grandma is still recovering well. But thankfully my dad wasnt that sort that let people climb over his head and didnt accede to her unreasonable demands. Such a bloody bitch.
Now, this red carrot has been complaining of how tired she was taking care of my grandma especially my grandma hasnt been very happy with her. My grandma has been giving her sour face because of carrot's constant and relentless nagging. Just heard from the neighbouring patients that this mad carrot has been hurling insults and scolding my grandma while we were not around. So, is that the way how a daughter should treat her mother? I absolutely do not think that she is setting the right example as the eldest aunt. Seems like she has not been practising all those Buddha teachings that she has been preaching.
The last straw came on last Sunday. She, right in front of me and my sister, scolded my grandma "wu yao ke jiu" just because my grandma refused to smile at her. This was really making me super angry that I gave her a super pissed glare. FUCKING DAMN BITCH. How dare she scold my grandma!
We never ask or request her to come take care of my grandma every single day. She was not forced by anyone in the family. Most importantly, my grandma do not need constant attention and us staying vigil by her side. If she is so unwilling, she can choose not to come. It's just as simple as that. If she really has the heart to take care of her mother, she should not even complain. Also, my grandma has not grown senile and she understands what we said. The carrot has been repeating over and over again, harping over the same thing over and over again. She is so irritating that even my grandma finds her a super eyesore now. And she should FUCKING get it clear that the sons are not shirking responsibilities but they are all working. Plus, my eldest uncle and my dad do come during weekend to visit. Not everyone is FUCKING rich like her. Everyone has to work and not everyone is like her - she owned a vegetarian stall (ex-chicken rice stall) at Tekka. Anyway, her food tasted awful, very awful and that is not my biased judgment.
I myself has to travel from the east to west in 1.5 hrs on alternate days after work to visit my grandma but I have never complained that I am tired. And my family didn't even want to or think about taking a single cent from my grandma because the money is hers and up to her who she wants to give them to. And is still rightfully hers till the day she departs.
She better stop putting up her 臭架子 as eldest aunt and poking her nose into every single matter. She do not deserve any respect from me since she has no respect for my grandma and everyone else. She can go ahead to say that I am disrespectful and rude (only to her). As if I FUCKING care what she said. I will continue to maintain my attitude towards her and will piss her more often in the future.
I repeat.. I would not care what she said about me because she simply do not deserve any respect from me. Anyway, this is only part of the story. She has said too many shameless things that it's too long to list.
I hope retribution falls on the carrot for doing this to my grandma. I believe in karma.
May God Bless My Grandma.
Who could have pissed me off so much?
It's my fucking 2 aunties. I called them the evil twin or carrots sister (carrot because one of them, the more evil one, has permed her hair till it's like the "bushy" part of carrot).
This red carrot (I repeat.. the more evil one) has been going to the hospital every single day ever since my grandma is hospitalised. By right, we ought to thank this "kindest greatest soul" for "taking care" of my grandma. Since she is not working or running her stall (her market is renovating) while the rest of us, including my uncles and dad, are working, it's only right for her to visit her mother. But then again, we didnt ask her to come visit every single day.
Apparently, it was discovered that she is not doing all these out of pure kindness, but eyeing on the large amount of savings that my grandma has scrimped and saved over the years. And she has been going around telling people in the hospital that she has been so filial and claiming credits for herself. Of course, at the same time, she has been discrediting her brothers for not taking the responsibility and speaking ill of us behind our backs. Such a bitch.
Secretly, she began pressuring my father to release the money in my grandma's joint account with my father to split up the money. And that was even when my grandma is still recovering well. But thankfully my dad wasnt that sort that let people climb over his head and didnt accede to her unreasonable demands. Such a bloody bitch.
Now, this red carrot has been complaining of how tired she was taking care of my grandma especially my grandma hasnt been very happy with her. My grandma has been giving her sour face because of carrot's constant and relentless nagging. Just heard from the neighbouring patients that this mad carrot has been hurling insults and scolding my grandma while we were not around. So, is that the way how a daughter should treat her mother? I absolutely do not think that she is setting the right example as the eldest aunt. Seems like she has not been practising all those Buddha teachings that she has been preaching.
The last straw came on last Sunday. She, right in front of me and my sister, scolded my grandma "wu yao ke jiu" just because my grandma refused to smile at her. This was really making me super angry that I gave her a super pissed glare. FUCKING DAMN BITCH. How dare she scold my grandma!
We never ask or request her to come take care of my grandma every single day. She was not forced by anyone in the family. Most importantly, my grandma do not need constant attention and us staying vigil by her side. If she is so unwilling, she can choose not to come. It's just as simple as that. If she really has the heart to take care of her mother, she should not even complain. Also, my grandma has not grown senile and she understands what we said. The carrot has been repeating over and over again, harping over the same thing over and over again. She is so irritating that even my grandma finds her a super eyesore now. And she should FUCKING get it clear that the sons are not shirking responsibilities but they are all working. Plus, my eldest uncle and my dad do come during weekend to visit. Not everyone is FUCKING rich like her. Everyone has to work and not everyone is like her - she owned a vegetarian stall (ex-chicken rice stall) at Tekka. Anyway, her food tasted awful, very awful and that is not my biased judgment.
I myself has to travel from the east to west in 1.5 hrs on alternate days after work to visit my grandma but I have never complained that I am tired. And my family didn't even want to or think about taking a single cent from my grandma because the money is hers and up to her who she wants to give them to. And is still rightfully hers till the day she departs.
She better stop putting up her 臭架子 as eldest aunt and poking her nose into every single matter. She do not deserve any respect from me since she has no respect for my grandma and everyone else. She can go ahead to say that I am disrespectful and rude (only to her). As if I FUCKING care what she said. I will continue to maintain my attitude towards her and will piss her more often in the future.
I repeat.. I would not care what she said about me because she simply do not deserve any respect from me. Anyway, this is only part of the story. She has said too many shameless things that it's too long to list.
I hope retribution falls on the carrot for doing this to my grandma. I believe in karma.
May God Bless My Grandma.
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^momo^ @ 11:43 PM
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
Happy Niu Year!
Happy Chinese New Year To Everyone!To those who are working:
祝你事业顺利，步步高升，口袋满满！
To those who are still studying:
祝你学业进步！
To those who hasnt found someone to spend Valentine Day with:
祝你爱情顺利，有情人终成眷属！
Lastly,
祝大家年年有余， 身体健康，红包多多, 不愁吃，不愁穿！：）
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^momo^ @ 11:34 PM
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Depression
It has been a real depressing week for everyone in the family.
Yesterday, my grandma's condition took a dive for the worse and suffered from brain hemorrhage on her left brain lobe. The right side of the body was swollen and in a way, damaged and immobilized now. Despite her critical condition, she appeared to be more alert and tried to talk to us. She told us that she wants to go to market, she wants her coffee tea break.. and even told us that "my grandpa is coming to take her away"... It was totally heartbreaking. At some point, seeing her laying so frail in bed... was simply unbearable and the best i could do now is to not let her see me upset. I just hid at one corner and sobbed. Perhaps, she could still sense that I was crying (while trying my best to force out a smile) and she too will start tearing.
I just wish to hug her for awhile more, kiss her for awhile more, talk to her for a while more and she stays for awhile more... i feel so ashamed of myself. Why didnt I spend more time with her when she's well and happy?
And today, we had a meeting with the doctor to discuss about my grandma's condition. Even the doctor wasnt optimistic about her condition and told us that my grandma's brain was swelling, although the hemorrhage was contained. It was a horrible feeling that we, as her children and grandchildren, has to bear. We opted against surgery since we dont want her to undergo the painful procedure. It was traumatising for her and for us as well. So we decided to let nature takes its course and our simple wish is to let her go without pain, without sufferings.
It was such a major blow for me... that i didnt know how to take it, how to accept it, how to face it...
Yesterday, my grandma's condition took a dive for the worse and suffered from brain hemorrhage on her left brain lobe. The right side of the body was swollen and in a way, damaged and immobilized now. Despite her critical condition, she appeared to be more alert and tried to talk to us. She told us that she wants to go to market, she wants her coffee tea break.. and even told us that "my grandpa is coming to take her away"... It was totally heartbreaking. At some point, seeing her laying so frail in bed... was simply unbearable and the best i could do now is to not let her see me upset. I just hid at one corner and sobbed. Perhaps, she could still sense that I was crying (while trying my best to force out a smile) and she too will start tearing.
I just wish to hug her for awhile more, kiss her for awhile more, talk to her for a while more and she stays for awhile more... i feel so ashamed of myself. Why didnt I spend more time with her when she's well and happy?
And today, we had a meeting with the doctor to discuss about my grandma's condition. Even the doctor wasnt optimistic about her condition and told us that my grandma's brain was swelling, although the hemorrhage was contained. It was a horrible feeling that we, as her children and grandchildren, has to bear. We opted against surgery since we dont want her to undergo the painful procedure. It was traumatising for her and for us as well. So we decided to let nature takes its course and our simple wish is to let her go without pain, without sufferings.
It was such a major blow for me... that i didnt know how to take it, how to accept it, how to face it...
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^momo^ @ 10:15 PM
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
Letting Go
Letting go is very painful. I am feeling super awful. Has been crying all night. Guess I have been suppressing my tears too much in front of her. Perhaps, what my dad said was right. Rather than praying that her life will be extended, it will be better for us to pray that she can leave without much suffering and in peace. She's already 93 and it's a matter of time that she would leave us. But upon hearing what my dad said, I cant help feeling terribly upset.
I wasnt a good granddaughter. Not visiting her enough. Not talking to her more often. When i held her hand, I dont know when was the last time i held her hand like this. It was agonising. When i cried, she squeezed my hand as if asking me not to cry. She responded by squeezing your hand to indicate that she is aware of your presence.
So many things I wish she can see before she leave, see me success in life, see me get married, see me with my children...But life isnt for eternity.
I wasnt a good granddaughter. Not visiting her enough. Not talking to her more often. When i held her hand, I dont know when was the last time i held her hand like this. It was agonising. When i cried, she squeezed my hand as if asking me not to cry. She responded by squeezing your hand to indicate that she is aware of your presence.
So many things I wish she can see before she leave, see me success in life, see me get married, see me with my children...But life isnt for eternity.
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^momo^ @ 12:24 AM
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
Happy yesterday, Sad today
I am uber upset today. To think that it was my birthday yesterday, I ought to be still feeling happy. Received 2 bad news today.
One was I developed cornea ulcer, the onset of cornea infection due to contact lens. And the suay-est thing is i just changed to my new contact lens yesterday! And changed from a lousy brand monthly disposable to a good reputable brand biweekly disposable just recently!!! My left eye has been swollen, red and tearing since yesterday night. How i wish it was as simple as just a sore eye. Bad. I have to apply eye drop every 2 hours, eye gel every 3 hours and ointment overnight. No contacts for 2 weeks and i have to visit my doc every 3 days. Sian. What to do. I have better take good care of my eye for these 2 weeks. I really have to give a serious thought to Lasik surgery.
Second bad new is that my grandma was hospitalised in the ICU for stroke. She was running a fever and yet my uncle did not discover. In the end, she went short of breathe and one of my uncle has to call my brother to call the ambulance. It's like how fucking retarded is that? My uncle told my brother he has to rush to pick up my cousin, a 8 yr old brat from school. Is like... hello?! Firstly, who is more important and which is more urgent? And please, with an old folk at home, dont u know the emergency number to call? Argh. It's super frustrating.
Pray hard that my grandma will survive these tough times. *pray hard*
One was I developed cornea ulcer, the onset of cornea infection due to contact lens. And the suay-est thing is i just changed to my new contact lens yesterday! And changed from a lousy brand monthly disposable to a good reputable brand biweekly disposable just recently!!! My left eye has been swollen, red and tearing since yesterday night. How i wish it was as simple as just a sore eye. Bad. I have to apply eye drop every 2 hours, eye gel every 3 hours and ointment overnight. No contacts for 2 weeks and i have to visit my doc every 3 days. Sian. What to do. I have better take good care of my eye for these 2 weeks. I really have to give a serious thought to Lasik surgery.
Second bad new is that my grandma was hospitalised in the ICU for stroke. She was running a fever and yet my uncle did not discover. In the end, she went short of breathe and one of my uncle has to call my brother to call the ambulance. It's like how fucking retarded is that? My uncle told my brother he has to rush to pick up my cousin, a 8 yr old brat from school. Is like... hello?! Firstly, who is more important and which is more urgent? And please, with an old folk at home, dont u know the emergency number to call? Argh. It's super frustrating.
Pray hard that my grandma will survive these tough times. *pray hard*
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^momo^ @ 11:10 PM
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Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas To Everyone!
Merry Christmas to all my dearest friends!
It's a time of gathering and catching up with one another, with people you have not meet for ages. Although Christmas mood is not so strong this year and with the lesser gift exchanges (at least for me), I still enjoy the gatherings that I have been attending. :) It's the excellent company!
Shall blog about the gatherings later!
It's a time of gathering and catching up with one another, with people you have not meet for ages. Although Christmas mood is not so strong this year and with the lesser gift exchanges (at least for me), I still enjoy the gatherings that I have been attending. :) It's the excellent company!
Shall blog about the gatherings later!
^momo^ @ 12:56 AM
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Monday, December 15, 2008
Weekend @ Southern Ridges
Spend my Saturday morning with my 2 dear pals, xiao Jiamin and da Jiamin (Collectively known as "the Jiamins") at the Southern Ridges. Xiao Jiamin got a scolding from me for wearing the wrong attire for the walk. She was in jeans and ballet flats... for god sake. Geared up in her most "touristy" attire - Sunglasses and hat, perhaps just lacking a camera that hangs round her neck to complete the look.
We started off by climbing a neverending flight of stairs at the Marang Trail. While people who passed us were heading down the stairs and we were going upwards, da Jiamin and me were wondering if we have started at the correct place. Despite the fact that da Jiamin and me were both "Alishan-trained", this Marang Trail was enough to kill us.
But the journey up there was made easy by all those nonsensical jokes that we made. Finally we have reached Mt Faber Park! Nice scenery, love the breeze... However, I still love the night scenery at Mt Faber Park. :)
Reminiscing the cable car rides we had many years ago...
Next up to Henderson Waves. Thanks to NParks signboard and inconsistency with their direction marking on the floor. We made a big round before we made it to Henderson Waves. And we should have listen to the uncle's advice.
Henderson Waves links Mt Faber to Telok Blangah Hill. And next up... the forest walk and the hilltop walk.
After a 2.4 km stroll along the hilltop walk, we arrived at the Alexandra Arch and crossed over to the HortPark, which was the final stop of the day.
At the HortPark, we had a surprise awaiting for us. A surprise we all l-o-v-e so much that we actually RAN towards it. Guess what is it?
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Our Favourite Milo Truck! Dont we all love the Milo from the Milo Truck during all those sports days in school? :P
We had our fill of chilled milo and I couldnt remember how much I drank. I was so full that I just forgo my lunch. Shiokness...
We all concluded that the best part of Southern Ridges walk... is indeed the Milo from Milo Truck. lol.
Labels: Friends, Southern Ridges, Weekend
